Friday, May 02, 2008

I'm feeling shagged now. Mentally drained. I felt i have so much things on hands now. Notes to mug, job to quit, cash for expenses, friends to enjoy and lastly i wanna think about in my list is you.
I've screwed up once, to me, that period is what i called myself a failure. I job hopped, cash on hand is zero, had to stay over at my ex place to run away from my mum, drama at home, failed exam and had to study an extra year which i still felt is a waste of my time. Nevertheless, i've still felt i gain something in return, which leads to what i've become now.
Now somehow i think i'm doing better than before, at least i got a job which i've worked about few months. I have plans and goals in mind that i wanna hit. I know what i want in life which many might still be figuring out. I got cash, although still in debts, but at least i'm spending my own money and paying my expenses all by myself.
And i don't wanna to screw all these and picked myself up all over again. Cause i know you don't worth me going through what i've gone through before. All those emo-ness and don't wanna do anything but you kind of thing. You don't even know what you want. I just wanna get over and done with. No more mind games and whatsoever please. Thank you.
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